Keep dreaming, it's the only way to go

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Fright night? Hahahaha. The dark ain't that scary...(a little draggy I feel..) I'm scared of losing my friend. I think I've already lost you...like how the rest have come and gone. The closest ppl hurt you the most. Because you've already shown them your most vulnerable side. Was it just wrong judgement? (Seems like it was, because of all those lies- and yet I clung on.) You know what? It takes two hands to clap. You should have known better than to do that. And I guess I shouldn't have let it happen. My fault. (Long) P.S. I don't like myself to be so emo. I'm not emo. Just that I only write when I'm emo. So it seems like I'm always emo. But I am not emo. Haha. Happiness is just accentuated by those emo stuff maybe? Treasure your happiness. P.S.S. Results out in 2 days ZOMGGGG!!! TTFN.

Am I bipolar or what haha I can get so depressed some days and be perfectly happy with myself another. Anw dance ytd was much better and I could keep up, maybe because there were fewer steps as well. It's so hard to dance. Even though you have to strive for perfection in other sports or arts, for me dance takes so much more out of me. There are so many more details, and sometimes you just don't know how to get everything right. Compared to sports like volleyball, you are allowed much less room to make mistakes. Compared to playing the violin, you have to use so much more energy. And maybe because in dance it's about expression as well...I'm working on it :) Never give up. Especially if you know you really wanna do something. TTFN :)

I'm scared of myself sometimes. I'm not suicidal. But why do my thoughts so many a time wander so precariously over the railings (literally)? Had our first rehearsal today. Why am I so scared to ask. I feel so inadequate. Just feel like giving up. But obviously I cannot. Dance is like the guy I will never get together with. Rejected. Can't bend low enough, back too arched. Can't even get the feel right. So hard. I think the worst thing is that I am too scared. Too scared to do smth I don't know, too scared to ask, too scared of getting judged. I wish I could just not think for one day. That would probably give me courage. "So close yet so far" makes it all the more depressing. Why are you never here? Must I argue with you so that you will be? I really hate it. I hate how I overthink. I hate how you care yet don't care. It's just me. I need to suck it up. TTFN.

I just can't stop ): Please stop I beg you. TTFN.

Gosh. I just had to clip this out. Like, never ever. Save yourself. Do other things. Live your own life. Thank you Thought Catalog. Alright I need to sleep now or I will die in dance class tmr. (Today was awesome tho. Shopping with the BIMZ- tho I didn't buy anything- and watching As it Fades . The $21 was worth it.) Meow :D Not all of us are here tho! ): Can't w8 for monday! OK REALLY GONNA END HERE HAHA. ~TTFN~

It's been pretty scary, how time just flies by...So many things seemed to have happened and I feel like I've grown more than just a year older. (hopefully not physically hahaha) Actually finals finished for me on the 5th of May, Monday. I can't really tell how I did, just that I know that's all I could give and I've learnt stuff out of my mods. Hope for the best and may the bell curve be kind. So now it's time to get on with life, what with triple bill and catching up on my magazine and book readings! And then there's committee stuff too. Kinda scared but starting on it makes me excited too. I hope we will be a close-knit and dedicated team :') And then I have no idea why I agreed to cynosure as well but haha let's just have as many experiences as we can while we're still in Uni, where we can make mistakes and all. Uni. Where we make or discover those life-long friends. I've been spamming my friends with this: I really love t