Keep dreaming, it's the only way to go

Stories of the past^^ P told me abt how in Moscow e immigrations officer stamped his passport so emphatically that it left no print. LOL. It's those stamps that push into the paper so that an image pops out/in. (sry duno the correct term to use!) I realise the Russians are so expressive. Their music, their art, their sports. Makes me want to go there!! I've actually loved them without even knowing it:) (if u know what I mean~) Spent this afternoon and last night crying cuz what they do is just so beautiful. Yes it's THAT beautiful! D': This was what I looked like hehe. K I need to start doing smth abt BMAT man.....ARGHHH! TTFN!~

LOL it's so weird. Not exactly a nightmare but it sort of had a similar effect. Dreamt that the vet where I last volunteered at was testing me all sorts of physics qns and the other girl was also there and she could answer everything while I couldn't. The only one I rmb was this funnel on top of another funnel like thingum and they were on top of a beaker. Then u pour water down and there will be this air space in between the two different types of funnels. And he asked why there was that air space. I know it doesn't make any sense here but in my dream it was so real! Mayb it was the after effects of my Cambridge interview and the stress from "impending" A lvls... I keep thinking abt what else I could have said in the interview even tho I know I really can't do anything else. But what to do? It's the irrational part of my brain/ "instinct" driving those thoughts. Mayb it's a good thing cuz it may help in other future interviews:) But I stil

ARGH why is that thingy taking so long! some connection prob i suppose:/ Anw I've decided to spam bio tmr. Gonna read my bio notes for e first time for a test/ exam. Keep seeing ppl do that so I've been pressured to do that too heh...been relying on answers and papers all along. And I shan't watch so much tv tmr. Gosh how! TV is like my eyes to the world cuz I don't really read the papers.... and today's documentaries were so amazing that I just had to watch them..:/ After ballet today I seriously wasted so much time playing piano...wasted cuz i was supposed to study. ok this is much more of a waste of time:/ Then after that I went down for pre-dinner food haha with P and talked a lot^^ Recently found out my dad got a scholarship to "study" karate too. Gosh how come he can just dream to do smth and just achieve it? Dreamt to be a ballet dancer and he did it. Dreamt to play e piano in front of a live audience and he did it. Wish I could be as discipli

I think these few days have been relatively productive, considering I still multi-task so I can study and do rubbish:/ Today's math lecture was a joke. The lecturer didn't even have t use a mike. That reminds me, I've to go check SAJC P2 answers. Went for Bio too:) Haha F is so cute^^ It's nice talking to such ppl! And omg she's just so funny HAHAHA. Today was a really good day cuz a certain group of ppl and of course C made me so touched^^ And they're such real ppl. And then this other person also made me really happy even tho it's sort of trivial and she didn't have much choice lol. (gosh I wonder if I can even rmb what happened on this day if I were to come back in a decade's time to look at this post...) But I don't think I would have been as happy if another person did the same thing. 6 more days:/ to the day that could change my life forever. But no matter what I will stay happy:) TTFN~^^

This guy is so amazing and humble. http://www.gla.ac.uk/schools/physics/staff/milespadgett/ Should have taken a photo with him as a souvenir. SIGH! If I got into Glasgow University I'll go find him hahaha. That's if he's not out giving talks and stuff. TTFN!~

Sucks having to procrastinate on blogging cuz it makes me forget what I originally wanted to blog about! But it's the A lvl prep period so by right I shouldn't be doing this!>.< Sort of feel ready yet not ready because even though I did alright for prelims, prelims feels so far away that I am afraid I have forgotten what I have studied. I don't like this feeling of throwing away everything after an exam. (Of course not everything tho.) All these years I've said I don't study for the sake of exams and it helps because you study consistently and concepts/stuff u really have to rmb stick. But it's still necessary to study harder just before an exam because it's inevitable during the exams you just have a mental block, so it's better to revise and take note of common mistakes and tricky questions/ qn phrasing to prevent such mental blocks. Like during the bio paper 2 I forgot what proteins help to separate 2 bacterial cells. Then on the bus I recalled.

): that's it. But at least I ate my fill and it was yummy. TTFN.

Please make me motivated. Last lap alr! Do it like u did in sec 1 during cross country. Do it well and then vomit after everything is over. I wish I still had that drive in me. I hope it's somewhere swimming inside of me. If not, too bad then, I have to recreate that drive. I know I've been lazy these few years. Been so hard to get that momentum all over again. But it's possible and the dream is just THERE. So do it the NIKE way: JUST DO IT!! Hilariously, the most recent time I've truly studied my heart out was for PSLE. Accepted DSA alr but still study so hard. Goon? Ppl around me say aiyo PSLE dun need to study one just play all day. I think only my coach thinks I play all day and nvr study cuz she keeps seeing me come back for trngs during that period. But the truth is that I studied every day. And I didn't have the computer to distract me. I rmb sitting by my bed on the floor with my soft green file going thru all my mistakes. I rmb practicing for oral. GOSH W

ahh well. I think I put in a decent amount of work this time. Overall I've improved or at least maintained my standards except for chem:/ chem was such a disaster. But I think it was better than the expectations I had after taking the paper. Lol. What sadness. I still remember that song playing over and over again in my head during the chem papers. Why did it have to play then?? But it's really a lovely song. Mayb that's why. And when I went home I bawled zzz. M told me to stop playing MW so I did:) BUT OH NO RELAPSE TODAY T.T Anw I seriously need to work on my essays. GP, BIO, and ECONS essays. FAILED SO BADLY except for GP which was such a relief. Do I really have such bad written expressions? Okay maybe so, since I keep writing so incoherently and with so many puns etc (here) that it probably makes no sense to people reading it (if there are). Time to drink green bean soup, and then I shall get on to studying. Just a random thought: Does W have photographic memory?