Keep dreaming, it's the only way to go

Have u ever felt despair? When u feel as if u are being locked within a room away from all forms of human existence, yet u are still in contact with humans. Just that, no one understands you, or wants to understand you. Maybe that is why I crave for discussions with open minded people. But I realised this morning, after a good night's sleep that was forced into due to overflowing tears and a headache that extended to my eyes (or did it happen the other way round), that teaching in an institution isn't about having open minded discussions. It's about passing down information, as complete as possible. I am not particularly good with that. Students that I have met, in general, prefer these ways of teaching. They not necessarily like it, but it saves them the trouble and time of reading the information on their own. It is not inspiring, but it is the most straightforward way of knowing what to study -for the exams. I do see the benefits of such a teaching style, but it...

So it has come to the time of the year where I blog and do an update of my life. Probably gonna be long since I haven't blogged in forever... It's almost the end of Year 3, I'm just left with FYP, and just waiting for my results. Got the field work FYP I wanted where I get to measure biodiversity which seems really dirty and exciting. Hehe. And I finaaaaalllyyyy watched zootopia and LUVEEEEDDDD it! Today is also kinda the day that marks the end of a period of stress for a little while, cuz I'm done with my Eu Yan Sang interviews! If the results are good mayb I'll put up an update :) If not I need to prep for more interviews! YIKES! And hopefully not cry over it ha. Also recently I've found new perspectives on veganism. Ugh I feel like doing a video post because my keyboard is spoilt. Trying to save too much money that I cant even afford a new lappy. So ANW I came across freelee the banana girl youtube videos and she's bringing back all the stuff I've...

In general: 1. Keep calm, let it tide over. 2. Acting stupid sometimes is beneficial. 3. Patience is key. 4. Just don't flare up. Friends: 1. Don't expect. 2. Don't blame. 3. Don't depend. 4. Love unconditionally. Dance: 1. Patience. 2. Love. 3. Be inspired. Good things come to those who wait. Bad luck comes in batches. Be positive. TTFN

Everytime during exams it feels real chill despite it being the supposed "stress period". Not because I manage my time well but just because CCA stops and there're no lessons so all your time is just focused on studying for the exams. This sem is even MORE chill because I only have 2 final papers (1 mod was internship and another we finished before recess week, and the last one is my ureca mod that I still have to write a report for.) And today I took my last paper so yipee!:) I can't really tell how well I'm gonna do but I think I did all I could already, plus I have so much more passion this sem so if I really do well that would be a nice bonus:) Anw I just wanted to record down some updates from my life, because I think they're worth writing about since I feel quite proud about them. And also there'll be some random other updates that I just thought were interesting to me. 1. So first thing is YAYYY I'm gonna be working at Brownice this summer! ...

Been thinking quite a bit recently, been reading quite a bit too. So I was really wondering, what makes us heterosexual/homosexual/bisexual/pansexual- or whatever else there is, the whole spectrum. Or is there only one gender (we can all love anyone- romantically of course)? I want to use the word "natural", but in everyone's minds, natural means "biologically natural"- whether a couple is able to reproduce- what else is courtship and intercourse for then? (designed by Tom Lindsay) But what really is natural? If no one told us who to like, how to behave, would we still agree with our respective genders? I remember my friend asking me if I thought gender was genetically defined (intrinsic) or shaped by society (extrinsic). At that point in time I was pretty sure it was intrinsic. I knew I never had any attraction for girls. But then again it's not as if I had an attraction for ALL boys either...And whether I liked it or not, I was raised as a girl-...

Haha I think I only named this post that because people do talk about finding themselves. I don't think I ever felt lost, or more of I never felt the need to know who I was (like it never occurred to me as a problem of not having an identity), but because the recent events have made me realise what the kind of person I am so I just wanna write a little bit about it. I'm vegan. And recently JDC'15 got postponed due to MM's passing. 2 really different things. But they made me realise I don't accept the fact that sometimes we "cannot change anything". So many people keep telling me, ahh wells no choice anyway / chill la there's nothing we can do about it anyway. And it really just pisses me off. Because I really hate it when ppl just resign to fate, especially when there's just that little bit of hope that things could be changed. You are only where you are because of yourself. Stop being so selfish to put the blame on everything else but yo...

Crow in our Christmas Wonderland @MBS nutcracker outfits. Haha this was for our fundraising event for Propulsion. And it also marks the only time that I will be doing/completing a yoga challenge (#justbepresent)- Okay we will see how, like whether I will ever take up another challenge...But omg it was so tedious. NEED A BREAK. Trying out a new sport for this year's IHG Sports I'm playing this year for Hall 13: 1. Volleyball (duh) 2. Basketball (losing my toenails again- sigh why is my shooting so lousy) 3. Squash (IT HASN'T EVEN STARTED. Ok at least I've managed to find the correct feel when whacking the ball:)) 4. Tennis :) 5. Track (sigh do I really have to do this. sigh sigh sigh. 400m is really badddd) 6. Hockey 7. Table tennis Currently still in the fight for all games hahahha:) (except for hockey lol I just remembered) After Propulsion rehearsal, tilt tuesday! Really hoping for this production to go well. I see so muc...