Keep dreaming, it's the only way to go

Everytime during exams it feels real chill despite it being the supposed "stress period". Not because I manage my time well but just because CCA stops and there're no lessons so all your time is just focused on studying for the exams. This sem is even MORE chill because I only have 2 final papers (1 mod was internship and another we finished before recess week, and the last one is my ureca mod that I still have to write a report for.) And today I took my last paper so yipee!:) I can't really tell how well I'm gonna do but I think I did all I could already, plus I have so much more passion this sem so if I really do well that would be a nice bonus:) Anw I just wanted to record down some updates from my life, because I think they're worth writing about since I feel quite proud about them. And also there'll be some random other updates that I just thought were interesting to me. 1. So first thing is YAYYY I'm gonna be working at Brownice this summer! ...

Been thinking quite a bit recently, been reading quite a bit too. So I was really wondering, what makes us heterosexual/homosexual/bisexual/pansexual- or whatever else there is, the whole spectrum. Or is there only one gender (we can all love anyone- romantically of course)? I want to use the word "natural", but in everyone's minds, natural means "biologically natural"- whether a couple is able to reproduce- what else is courtship and intercourse for then? (designed by Tom Lindsay) But what really is natural? If no one told us who to like, how to behave, would we still agree with our respective genders? I remember my friend asking me if I thought gender was genetically defined (intrinsic) or shaped by society (extrinsic). At that point in time I was pretty sure it was intrinsic. I knew I never had any attraction for girls. But then again it's not as if I had an attraction for ALL boys either...And whether I liked it or not, I was raised as a girl-...

Haha I think I only named this post that because people do talk about finding themselves. I don't think I ever felt lost, or more of I never felt the need to know who I was (like it never occurred to me as a problem of not having an identity), but because the recent events have made me realise what the kind of person I am so I just wanna write a little bit about it. I'm vegan. And recently JDC'15 got postponed due to MM's passing. 2 really different things. But they made me realise I don't accept the fact that sometimes we "cannot change anything". So many people keep telling me, ahh wells no choice anyway / chill la there's nothing we can do about it anyway. And it really just pisses me off. Because I really hate it when ppl just resign to fate, especially when there's just that little bit of hope that things could be changed. You are only where you are because of yourself. Stop being so selfish to put the blame on everything else but yo...

Crow in our Christmas Wonderland @MBS nutcracker outfits. Haha this was for our fundraising event for Propulsion. And it also marks the only time that I will be doing/completing a yoga challenge (#justbepresent)- Okay we will see how, like whether I will ever take up another challenge...But omg it was so tedious. NEED A BREAK. Trying out a new sport for this year's IHG Sports I'm playing this year for Hall 13: 1. Volleyball (duh) 2. Basketball (losing my toenails again- sigh why is my shooting so lousy) 3. Squash (IT HASN'T EVEN STARTED. Ok at least I've managed to find the correct feel when whacking the ball:)) 4. Tennis :) 5. Track (sigh do I really have to do this. sigh sigh sigh. 400m is really badddd) 6. Hockey 7. Table tennis Currently still in the fight for all games hahahha:) (except for hockey lol I just remembered) After Propulsion rehearsal, tilt tuesday! Really hoping for this production to go well. I see so muc...

Wow omg a year really passes so quickly. Did pretty okay for this sem despite being super stressed about so many things. GPA maintained so OKIE:) But I really wanted to do better for my biomed mods but ah well. Anw this is the highlight of the year: Sang at MOA's bar with my band :) I really really need to work on my audience interaction skills haha. Felt a little nauseous at the end probably because of the cigarette smoke and cuz I felt kinda inappropriate since I didn't know how to talk to the audience. But I shall learn along the way! Just gotta keep pushing myself out of my comfort zone. I actually made so many mistakes even though I wasn't nervous. But the people there were really nice and encouraging. And the audience sang along to "let it be" haha. Our set lists: Set 1 1. Secrets 2. Blankspace 3. How deep is your love 4. To make you feel my love 5. Crushcrushcrush 6. The mother we share 7. Toxic 8. Still into you Set 2 ...

Some days just feel kinda bad, and today's one of those days. Just feel a little bit of a failure for not being able to achieve as much as I dreamt of achieving. I guess watching those gym vids just made me a little regretful that I never managed to reach a satisfying standard for myself. But then again at that time I knew I was lucky to have met a good coach who taught me things that I thought I never would have dared to do. So it's really all in my head. I think I really loved gym. Just that I was really afraid of hurting myself... And I'm gonna restrain myself from writing about more depressing stuff. haha. It's really a bad trait that I have, this "thinking too much"-ness...I learnt the hard way after that big quarrel with my friend. Gotta count my blessings:) Super into chvrches these days:) Ma fav song is Lies. Teehee lead singer of Chvrches. I wanna be like herrrrr~ To have confidence and to have a mind of my own. I prefer li...

Ok I realized I need to update this cuz so many things have happened since I last posted... Just had our first midterm paper of the sem. This sem I'm feeling rather lost for anatomy...so I've gotta catch up w that. And I'm also lagging by 2 lectures oops... It's been a lot of content lately, so I hope I'll be able to absorb everything by the end of this sem... I've also accepted the eureca project on stroke bio markers and it seems really exciting as it's already almost at its clinical stage so :D Never really thought I'd do research at this lvl but since I've got the chance I shall just grab it. On top of this there's also gonna be the ASEAN youth cultural forum next week in Jakarta. Excited but really unprepared cuz everything is really last min...but I'm in it with 2 other ppl so I shan't worry too much. Gotta just wing it and enjoy performing, no matter how weird it's gonna b. Contemp comm stuff has also started- auditions p...