Keep dreaming, it's the only way to go

Count down! 17 more days to us trip! YAY!!!:) Wat a great choice to go for IP MAN 2 ytd. It was raining ytd and even if I had decided to go for the high jump event, I wouldn't have competed on that day. SO YAY. I'M SO SATISFIED WITH E CHOICE I MADE. hahahaha.. AND YAY I broke last year's record. But obviously I think it's still far away from national standard=.= Penelope is SOOOOO cute. But my bro thinks she looks like a prawn cuz of her eyes. LOL. U know I'm not talking abt a real person right? It's my mom's knitted bear. It's the best she has ever made. The rest are totally@#$%^&* hahaha! I seriously can't believe I didn't screw up my SRQ. The test is just weird. I can't get over the fact that I didn't screw it up. (I'm not trying to show off--> I was sooo sure I screwed it!) I hope we don't get such tests anymore. They don't make sense. The article was weird. Don't u think so? ARGH I lost my golden name t...

I'm so hungry! Goin for 3rd lang soon. And I don't plan to miss the bus again. Last week I missed it cuz I forgot to go straight to the side gate, so I had to take a bus, then a train, there. And I even lead the way for this other ny girl who's in 2/8. Can't believe time flies so fast. I'm mixed up with who's in sec 1, who's in sec 2. Need ta think for awhile to recall. Plus, 3rd lang exams are in oct. I need ta do something about that soon! I'm not good at compo, not good at the main paper..I can't even do listening compre. (don't even talk about oral TEST.) I have to repeat the tape so many times:( NEED TO BUCK UP MAN! I don't think i hav the flair for languages. I only can imitate the way ppl speak, but not comprehend whatever is said:( Anw JIAYOU to myself. I hope I can do it. Super not disciplined now. I think it's cuz I hav no more cca so I've become lazy. I can reach home at 3 and not do anything but watch tv/ go online to play...

There are many ridiculous things that happen but ppl don't know about them cuz no one tells them. An example is a cat teaching a lioness to hunt. I realise why people think i'm sarcastic. But I'm not sarcastic in front of people. 《那一年，我的流氓班》is a great book. So funny. The title alr tells u how cool the book is. Being confined to a top sch for 4 years, i dun think anyone would know what it's really like in a so-called "gangster class". Reading this book will give u a glimpse of wat it's like. really interesting! TTFN!`

C and I went t Island Creamery to supposedly study. I would consider it SEMI-productive. U noe, I keep forgetting that semi means half? Anw, I think it's half-productive cuz I managed to study in Mac but not in Island Creamery. Hmm how come? I duno=.= Actually we went t Island cuz C owed me an ice-cream treat for my b'dae. We tried ping pong milo, which was OK at first but weird at the last bit, maybe cuz the ice-cream was more or less melted. It's like there's butter? I duno...Anyway the ice-cream was made of milo ice-cream and marshmallows. Interesting but quite expected of island CREAMERY. I DUNO IT'S JUST TOO CREAMY. WEIRD! or mayb cuz we shared a tub so it was too much for us not to get sick of it. But it was fun there. HAHA. DUMB DUMB SHAKY HAND. HAHAHHAAHA.. Then (CAN U BELIEVE WE WEREN'T FULL?) we went to MAC and ordered a LARGE FRIES, with the spicy shaker thingy. And another... SUPER SHIOK but C was complaining of getting fat. It's really funny...

I'm a total idiot. I didn't understand how u felt at first. I probably still don't but if I were u, I would have made the same decision. But I still think that decision isn't a really good one, but if u stayed u'd probably go crazy. lol...... Anw, even if u won't see this, sry M. TTFN!~ ps. rock guitar lesson was great. I loved the way u got angry:)

all my troubles seem so farrrrrr awayyyy... LOL (just "completing" the title cuz I like that song.) I like songs for their tunes, not their lyrics. But of course lyrics are really important too cuz without the right lyrics it'll sound weird too. As in they need to rhyme or fit in with the melody. ANW I wasn't gona talk about music. OMG my brain feels like it is being seized. After-effects of the car crash? My whole body is weak:( OK...I love fri cuz lessons are so short and I have time after sch. SO after meeting up with frens for MRP I went to the gym to teach the trampers. Tsk tsk... Need to do more pt man.. pt pt pt.. If u can't reach the lower level, how can u reach the higher level? Even the fastest learner needs to pass that level, just that he or she passes it faster. Actually even if u can do it, u still have to do it a million times to get the feeling etched in your guts. That's called sports. The more time u spend on that sport, the better you ...

I hate it when ppl who are not my parents tell me how I should behave. Especially when these people don't know the situation or they probably know but don't know the meaning of the situation. Also, especially when their own children don't know how to behave. Well, no thanks for wasting the time u should be using on ur own children on me. I've made up my mind. Last straw taken, and I don't wanna be in the same space as you. TTFN!~

I'm super irritated with M. Like how could he have done that?!:'(

Plants are so advanced. They don't fight, they just let their fruits be eaten. They want their fruits to be eaten. And it's smart cuz that means they can reproduce cuz the seeds will be passed out throught the animal's bowels and planted in the ground. (too bad when the fruits land up in a "civilised" human's stomach and then get passed out into toilet bowls.) There's no conflict between plants and animals, cuz the plants don't fight back. The thing that's cool is that even when the plants don't fight, the world fights back for them. Earth is dying, and it's cuz of humans, who had killed/ are still killing so many trees. Bad things always come round. Don't forget that. So most of the time it's worth holding back. Of course in the world if there's good, bad must exist. Or else how are the fruits gonna get eaten? I believe everything in the world has its opposites and opposing forces. That's called BALANCE. Without bad, u ca...

P's sad so I'm sad today too.. I'm angry cuz I can't do anything. I don't know what to do about it. I have a feeling of where M wants to stay. Or maybe not, since M ran away b4.. Anw it's LOL that Sg's gonna lower the weightage of chinese in PSLE. It's like Sg's Chi is alr soooo low.. (Not that I'm very good, but Taiwanese Pri sch standard is our JC standard.) It's not true that someone will have more time if he or she doesn't need to worry too much about chi. It's like since u can't cope with the current standard, u can cope with the NEW standard if u study the same way. If the weightage drops, and u yourself put in less effort, isn't the effect of dropping the weightage useless? HAHA it's NOT useless, cuz it'll lower the overall standard of CHI! A bad effect is not useLESS. Back to wat I was saying, dropping the weightage will also breed the thinking that Chi is not that important. But the good thing about it is ...

I went for 4 *400m today with J, A and Y at HCI. We got 3rd for the 2nd heats. But it's straight finals so I don't think we'll get anything.. Kinda demoralized cuz I got overtaken near the end. (I was the last runner.) But I seriously was too tired to go any faster. When I finished and stopped, there was only darkness in front of me and I couldn't even walk properly. I had to walk with my legs slightly apart and slowly or I would have just collapsed..HAIZ! I hope I don't get a muscle ache cuz I THINK I have long jump this thur. Anw I don't have any regrets! It was fun!:D I think I took part in 4by4 last year as well but I was still training for gym so it was much better! Gym makes a BIG BIG BIG difference. Even my vb coach agrees. SIANZ it's sad:( but just try to do as well as I can. U noe I think ATS is really good at teaching core values? The first one is Aspire to be our best (somethin along the lines) and I guess lots of ATS ppl are doin that. I noe quit...

It's finally over and done with. I think I'm much more organized this time..and lots more prepared, tho I still couldn't finish. As in there's no conclusion. My "agree" is also very short. Half a page. In total I wrote 2 and 3/4 pages. So u can do ur maths and see how long my "disagree" is. Actually I don't really understand how you can disagree and agree to different extents for a question like: the government has done enough blah blah blah. Unless I got the planning of essays wrong. Actually it's supposed to be LA now and I'm supposed to find my articles for R&R. But now I have so much time on my hands cuz there's no trng for gym and no vb trng on sat morns. Trng is slack for sec 4s cuz we're not competing anymore and we don't play matches anymore cuz JL wants to do drills. Well it makes sense and it's better anw cuz playing match doesn't really improve anything if you can't spike properly. There's less...

It's that time of the year again! IH Blocks! Tho I think this is the first time I'm studying so hard for IH lol.. ANW, let's see how much I can rmb from today's muggin: Situation- Symptoms of AIDS show only after about 10 years when HIV is contracted. Most people with AIDS live for about 15 more years after AIDS symptoms show -half of all deaths in South Africa is caused by AIDS -71% of deaths among those aged between 15 and 49 is caused by AIDS -1000 people die due to AIDS everyday -5.5 million out of a population of 48 million are infected with AIDS -21% of teachers are infected with HIV (eww) -23% of children under 6 are stunted -life expectancy in South Africa is 54 years, without AIDS it is estimated to be 64 years -it is estimated that half of 15 year olds would not live to over 60 years old -more women seem to be accessing testing for HIV than men -surveys show that many men find that there is no importance in knowing if they have HIV and even feel ...

Lol I forgot to talk abt the panel discussion we had ytd! HAHA I was the moderator and I'm so proud of myself. HAHAHA EGO EGO EGO. And I conclude that LA teachers do not listen well. My mom doesn't listen to me. UNLESS I FORCE HER TO and I do that most of the time. And they like to digress. Which means I'm trying to say they forget the initial question. Anw at least my panel discussion question was answered. Qn: How much public involvement should there be in decisions made in Scientific Research. Ans: Depends on the gvt. Plus gvt does make decisions based on public response as well. (So there's alr a constant.) Need more involvement if gvt not making good choices. Qn: In this age of advanced technology, where there is much access to information, how responsible are the public for the consequences of science and technology on the society. Ans: public has the ability to affect gvt decisions, hence has the most responsibility. (Not doing anything means giving consent to gv...

The flag was finally returned by the teacher. Today was an eventful day. 2.4 and 5 items. Memorable but not advised for those who chiong for 2.4. But I'm still quite disappointed by my timings and "results" cuz I deteriorated from last year. especially Standing Broad Jump:( Tho I improved for sit and reach, IPU, shuttle run, and retained my number of sit ups=.= How can ppl max the sit and reach measuring equipment?! I seriously want to see it for myself. TTFN!~

...school flag go? Oh where oh where did it go?! =.= I'm about to go off for Japanese Lessons. Hav a bit of free time now so killing it by blogging. Anw I have NAPFA tmr.. 2.4 + 5 items. Sianz...I prefer running during trng than during NAPFA. Hmm..anw I still hate 2.4 after all these years of knowing I still hav to do it no matter what. And that I can get an A. What shall I think of while running? Last year's run wasn't nice:( (But running during trng is actually quite fun. I mean at least better than NAPFA. LOL.) I'm quite lucky actually cuz tmr's PE is the first period so the weather won't be that hot. YAY so mayb that'll make my mood better. And I wonder what will we do during PE.. I think my stamina isn't as good as last year? Cuz I was still doing gym last year. Anw heck care haha. Wonder if anyone else is running with me since 5 items is on the same day.. I hope I can improve my standing broad jump score! :) We made slime and superball during...

Lol I'm crying over spilt milk again. Well, I'm gona flunk SRQ. I KNOW! I just can't stop whining! It's just my form of forgetting it so sorry to the people around me who have to listen to my ramblings. HAHA I sound like someone but I'm not sure if it's her. B I mean. Anw let me ramble on. I couldn't explain for SRQ and my points were all over the place. It's a little like blanking out but not as bad. It's like I don't know if the elderly would really get fired. And it's kinda true that they don't really have other jobs to do since they're quite old and I don't think it's really easy to pick up another skill. But I just said it would lighten their load since they're already overloaded cuz we make them clear our tables. I didn't go on to say "hence their employers wouldn't fire some of them cuz they still have to clean the premises (and toilets haha)". AIYA I didn't how to argue. That's one of the ...

Sec 4 is crap. It's like everything has alr ended. No comps to look forward to. Exams are like what? Of course I wouldn't screw exams up cuz there's no real cca trng. I guess the only gd thing abt now is that there's A LOT MORE TIME to go out. and knit:) Haha I'm 1/4 done with the dress for my bear. Can't w8 to finish it. BUT even after I finish it, I still must do the bear. and i love the bear's face. So sweet. AIYA I DUNO WHAT I'M WRITING LA! CRAPPING AWAY.. the feeling I get when I write my Chinese compo nowadays.. There's no inspiration at all:( Last time I would at least be able to crap. Now, I stone.. ARGH I FORGOT. There's still US trip, Shanghai trip Sec 4 grad, O levels.. Hmm what did I do during the period b4 PSLE? I'm so bored now!!!!!!!!! Mayb the effect of losing hasn't worn off. Mood is low and I'm tired and bored.. well it's the last year I'm competing in vb for ny. So I guess I'm missing vb comps alr. The...

In sch, some ppl r getting a little flustered. I think it was the Sec 2 (or was it sec 3) parents who came to our sch for breakfast with maybe the teachers? And I guess they were talking to one another. Then 2 sec 2 (or was it sec 3?) students' parents complained to the school that they didn't know about sch breakfast. LOLz... Anw I'm in a pretty good mood. Just that Clash of the titans has no real plot. The people didn't even seem to be fighting against one another, so why is it clash of the TITANS? At least for Percy Jackson I know cuz the lightning bolt was stolen so Zeus was angry and wanted to rage war. Clash of the titans...haiz...and there wasn't much good action. The fighting was quite unclear. LOL HOW CAN FIGHTING EVEN B UNCLEAR?! so you know what I mean? Haiz haiz haiz...I slept in the end...couldn't help it. Sparta was loads better. Still haven't showered...cuz I haven't done my Japanese hw. At least I did the website reflections alr:) It ...

Trng on Sat. This ball came flying while I was running. Stepped on it JUST when it landed and sprained by ankle. Luckily it's a slight sprain. Now my knee hurts. I hav a STRONG feeling it has something to do with the sprain. Shall not put too much pressure on it. BUT I'VE BEEN OUT WALKING THE WHOLE DAY! I've been missing so many lessons that I don't even know if there's hw. SO HAHA I CAN'T SAY I MUST DO HW. But I just finished physics SIA. Got an extension till mon morn. HENG... Fri is my LAST sec sch vb match. GONNA GIVE IT MY BEST! RAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! current homework: LA Panel discussion preparation. Personal Statement. Math-???? Chi-???? Chem SIA Bio SIA Physics as 16.2, 17.1, 17.2. (i think) IH-???? Japanese TB HW, Website reflections. Cool I feel organized. Not really actually...Just doin it for fun=.= =.= looks cat-like. The font makes it cat-like. I wanna watch IRIS cuz m and B says it's good. But I'm gonna finish beethoven virus...

Tolerance is very important as control is not part of human nature. We're in the finals. Fri is the finals. I guess I have to cry one more time. My tears cost nothing anw. It's the finals that is priceless. I'll trust my instincts. And not breathe a word cuz I need t conserve energy. Actually I was quite tired in the 3rd and 4th match. So I'll strt doing pt. I have the weekend! Life will soon become unoccupied by competition. O levels. So there's nothing to keep my mind off the weirdos. HAHA. "Just" came back from K box with teammates. TTFN~