Keep dreaming, it's the only way to go

even tho I slept at 5am in the morn, I didn't really feel like I was gona die. Managed to survive the whole day!!^^ the matches were damn fun especially the last 2. Kinda scary standing in the front row trying to defend but it was real satisfying when u manage to save the ball or even gain a point~ Playing in mixed teams are so much awesome-ness! Actually in the morn it was kinda bad cuz it was real hot and the atmosphere was kinda just not right. But after that it became alright~ so everything became okay. Haha ppl must think I've got some attitude prob>.< MAF was nice cuz the deco was pretty(: prob H's work!! The rest was kinda so-so..the singing was nice tho. They cud just do away with the cheer. Everyone was just aiya kk we're just gona cheer to support you. Not much 气氛..became really tired after that..eyes really dry.. so we went home! thank God C's dad came to fetch^^ Sigh I miss CS so much! Miss goin out with my OG.. Feel so dead now... TTFN!~

Man I kinda lost track of what day it is>.< Anw it's the 4th day of our VIETNAM VB COMPS TRIP!(: Everything's been awesome. The team's awesome. Quite bonded^^ Everyone's high and happy. And we won our match against Macau today!! 25-18, 25-15, 25-12. Wet towel: we were at a height advantage. We've to meet stronger teams and we've to play even better! And I'm sure we'll continue to improve. Everyone's playing awesome!!(: Made some mistakes>.< But otherwise quite happy and on form^^ CS this year is quite awesome. Everyone's high and happy:D Haha I admit I'm not as high as them but it's just my personality. It's really enjoyable to be with them^^ Oh forgot to say we lost to Iran ytd..Quite close lah.. 25-17, 25-20, 25-20 I THINK. But we played quite well!! They're really so tall.. so hard to block!! And they're so much bigger sized than us. But I thought they were playable so not bad a job done by us^^ WHOA...

Freedom of expression? In reality, it's impossible. It's like the fragile economy. Once you change something, there'll be many repercussions. If one says smth wrong, it'll affect your life. It depends on the severity too tho. If the issue is large, obviously the effects are significant. But sometimes even a small issue can cause huge problems. That's how life is. That's how sad life can be. But I believe there are always beautiful things in life. And it's these sad things that make them even more beautiful and rare(: Gonna rush to change now or I won't have dinner!>.< TTFN!~

haha I've been playing quite well these few days(: well not EXCEPTIONALLY WELL but compared to the trngs before this "good" period, it's good progress(: HAHA cuz I've been on the decline so I'm happy and high that I'm climbing back up the mountain!!:D LOL and I need to get the "scoring rhythm" back. Haven't really been able to score well in tests:/ It's most irritating when you understand the concepts but are unable to express them using the expected key words. Anw these few days have been good. But I NEED to strive for the better cuz there're always ppl in the world better than you! The world is so rapidly improving and we need to keep up!! Haha at least that's a way of keeping myself satisfied. Competition can be healthy(: K it's late alr and I'm sleepy so.. TTFN~

Let this apply to all my friends(: Somehow quite a few of my friends aren't that happy:( Well, for various reasons.. Anw I also used that as my title to cheer myself on(: I guess I naturally display my happy side..And my tired side apparently HAHA. Sigh I'm feeling less and less passion for school..Just wana stay at home to use the Internet. Much more inspirational. Haven't even had time to go to the lib to get more animal books!!>.< AIYA I feel I'm wasting so much time in school!! So many other things in the world!!!!!! Aiya actually I shouldn't be saying all these cuz it's not like I'm doing fantastically well..But my sucky grades don't really spur me on..:/ Half the year's alr passed..soon the J2s will leave..:( I really wonder what it would be like without them around..sigh..missing people is tough..ARGHHHHH): SHALL GO PRAC GUITAR NOWWWW!!^^ TTFN!~

Hmm I don't know if I should be up or down cuz bad things keep happening around me these few days! So I seem to be so fortunate..I guess it's the balance of things. There will always be both bad and good things happening simultaneously. And all the events have taught me not to be too sad over things we've lost. They're probably lost for a reason..and u'll learn something from that loss. Appreciate what you have now!! Anw trngs have been awesome(: But hmm I feel like I'm trng hard but i'm not losing fats or gaining more muscles LOL. not hard enough?! Oh and Asians are comin soooooonnnn! SO EXCITED TO GO TO VIETNAM!(: ASEAN was great this year. Made friends and swapped t-shirts. And went to USS!(: And I guess my mindset was right this time. I was such an idiot last year LOL>.< Haha anw speaking of vb (last year's ASEAN was for vb), trngs are only once a week. and it clashes with dance-.- Is it really that hard to arrange trng on another day? si...

Sigh..haven't been so affected so much before..I still can study (like I still can motivate myself) but I've no mood at all and I don't even want to make myself study. I just keep thinking of all the other things in life.. Why do our hormones work this way? But I guess I'm fortunate to be able to feel this way cuz it makes life much worth living. It's just quite scary still..scary to lose things..I'm scared that everything's not real. Why are there so many restrictions?:( TTFN~~