Losing that fire...

Somehow my mind feels very weak at the moment...It's just so hard to remember all those steps in dance...How do the rest keep up so well? I guess I have a very slow mind and an inexperienced body...But I can't complain cuz I don't dance every day like how some of my friends do...I just don't have that passion to...I say I love dance but I don't put in as much effort as so many other ppl do...Sometimes I even dread going for dance because I have to memorise the steps...

But I feel so good dancing M's steps sometimes. Is that what I was calling my passion? Does that really count? Dance is just so beautiful...I guess I'm feeling quite conflicted with myself at this stage...Do I really love dance?

I think I do...Just that I really need to put in more effort and rev up my head too...Those voices in my head r just irritating me so much these few days...Always making me feel so depressed and all...

And another thing. I don't know why I still feel so conscious of ppl judging me. So conscious that I always forget the steps halfway. It's weird cuz sometimes I don't even realise I'm being conscious...I really hate it when I forget the steps.

I joined dance in sch to perform. But somehow I'm dreading performing...I'm so scared to perform now...

TTFN

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