Keep dreaming, it's the only way to go

Haha I guess that's why I decided to post smth. And also why I'm not that disappointed by being malu with A just now at Osch LOL. I don't really think it's a hormonal thing tho~ more of cuz everything went quite well today. P came for ballet at 11.30 sharp so the rest of the day went according to plan. Mayb morn was a lil:/ cuz of my lousy pancakes. I'm not even gonna put any stars for that recipe>.< And it made me too full... But quite touched by P today cuz he wanted me to have a good day out with my friend. But he's always like that. That's why I love him so much! And it's one of e reasons I'm staying in Sg for another 3 yrs. And Liverpool actually replied...but I withdrew my application... Ppl keep asking me y I dun wanna pursue vet med anymore so here goes: 1) I wanna stay in Sg longer. Like seriously, I duno why I'm so attached to home atm.... And I figured if I really wanted to see the world I can go on trips. And PLAN them^^...

Haha I'm not asking for an answer. I'm just wondering if there's anyone who has no secrets. Secrets that you keep only to yourself. Secrets that aren't shared between u and ur best friend. I feel like I have to keep secrets because no one else would understand. But there's this urge to share, to get it out of my system. Yet I can't. It's not due to a lack of best friends but sometimes u can't find someone else who thinks the same way as you do. Best friends can be very different u noe... Just felt like writing this cuz quite a few secrets have accumulated n I need to write something so that I can feel as if I've let go of some of the tension that they have caused. SIGH! Anw I've got ballet tmr and that'll make me feel a lot better^^ TTFN!

And I won't be going overseas for another 3 years. It's a good thing I realise because I feel really attached to home more than ever at the moment. Rejection from the UK universities made me think deeper about what I really want to do. I do want to help animals but maybe not in the conventional medicine way. So I decided not to apply to Aussie after all. I accepted the NTU offer for biomed+tcm double degree 3 days after A lvls results came out. That was a monday. Actually it was more of 2 days after because I accepted it at midnight HAHA. I wanted to accept it right after I found out I was rejected by UK but M told me to wait till my results came out. And when they came out, M told me to wait for 3 more days cuz that's the "cooling off period". No regrets anw:) So now I can't wait for matriculation and sch term to start! haha but I will make full use of my hols. Still have loads of things to do man! About going overseas, I figured it would be more fun to go fo...

Felt so helpless ytd when I cudn't help a dog who had 2 puncture woulds and a tear (by 2 other dogs) even though I interned at 2 vet clinics. I knew I had to flush the wounds but other than that I couldn't do anything. The freaking tear was 1.7ml deep so it has to get stitched up or else it could abscess. And the scar would be so horrible. At least the hair will cover it tho:) Poor thing he was so scared and the iodine burned sooo bad he would writhe and squirm and whine. Saw him today again and he looks slightly better and calm:) Poor thing I can't even say baby he's 11 alr and that's like more than middle aged. He can't lift his leg to scratch his wounds cuz of e puncture wound on his back leg that most prob touched his nerve. Well it's a good thing anw that he can't scratch those wounds! Anw ytd I really felt quite helpless not only cuz of that. When u go out to work (just after graduating), u realise sometimes ur common sense just fails u. And u ...

I've been so lazy to blog really:/ I say this cuz I actually thought abt some stuff to write a few days ago yet I didn't bother to put those thoughts into words. Procrastination. Lol. I really wanna record all these thoughts because I think they're meaningful (at least to me) so finally now I force myself to pen them down heh! I guess quite a lot of ppl come to this question in some point or another in their lives- what's e purpose of living? I've probably thought abt this before. But at this new point in my life I have gained new experiences and thus new ideas. I used to think it was all about being happy. But after spending much more time with animals I've realised other things. Anw why do animals live? What's their motivation? Are they happy or is it wired in them to just fight to survive? Maybe they don't think too much like how humans do all the time. They just do what they do. And then I realise that for the past 18 years I've been learning...

Day b4 CNY aka chu xi! Went out with buddies~~~ Haha got this on sale at BHG (who wud have thought). $29.50. Ignore my socks haha. They're super cute~ And I found out J also got this shoe too but of a diff design^^ CNY DAY 1 aka chu yi! Presents~ HAHA. Taz from X, bag from ABJJ. Bored in the car so yeah haha. And nails for CNY. Since I'm a full time cafe stewardess, I can't have painted nails on a regular basis. So off it goes on the 12th:/  LOL smth random. The story is, my drawer can't be opened even tho I've got the right key. No idea what happened to the lock but it sucks. So there. My dad drilled this square hole in it so now I can open it. Some of the things in there got drilled too LOL.  And #fotd. Actually I let my hair down. But it's really warm so up goes my hair. Yeah I noe my hair isn't very tame.  #ootd~ I look a lil beefy:/ and I only realised that those were real feathers after I bought it ): Don't get such dresses/clothes ...

Since I haven't been bloggin in awhile, I've decided to do a kinda special post this time:) I'm gonna do a haul! Haha cuz I kinda went crazy after getting my pay and got quite a few things from 313@somerset. So here goes: I got some skinnies from Uniqlo cuz they were goin at 19.90. Got a black one as well and they're quite comfy. From Miss Emily. Abt 50 bucks if I'm not wrong. My first Maxi!  These are from the shop next to Miss Emily (can't rmb its name and they took off the tag). They're arnd 30bucks so alright for me. I'm sure u can get cheap and pretty dresses at Bugis but u can't really try them on there can u? Anw the shop's theme is probably Great Britain (Y) hehe. Really pretty designs. And shoes from Mitju! Sporty and balletic at the same time~~I'm so lucky they had size 41 for this pair. Makes ur legs look longer somehow. I got it on sale for 24.40. Original price was 34.90 if I'm not wrong. An...