Keep dreaming, it's the only way to go

Being Catholic is my way of life but going to church is not. I'm catholic because I believe in the values catholics believe in and I think they help me in life. I don't go to church to be a catholic but I go there to learn, and learning good values is being catholic to me. This is achievable with other religions I believe, but I was brought up exposed to my own religion and it is the easiest for me to have faith in. I don't need church activities to help me make friends. My friends are in school and in my CCAs and in the other activities I take part in. And more importantly I don't need the church to help me understand how to love my family. I would rather spend that time with my family. Furthermore, learning is the easy part, the effort is much harder especially when one has not put in much effort before. Church can be a place to make friends but it should not take away valuable time one needs to spend with one's family. When that balance between friends and fa...

I cannot deny that results mean a big deal to me, especially now since the As are drawing closer. I'm still your typical competitive hwa chong student, if that's how you stereotype us HAHA. It's natural for all animals (err it's not a bad thing to be called an animal by me) anyway so what differs is whether it's the only thing you care about AND whom you compete with. Okay so I finally looked through my physics paper 2 today after so long- probably being an escapist or lazy ass- and realised the kind of mistakes I made. Gosh. I am just speechless. No wonder V said the papers were easy. Zzzz what was I even thinking during the paper? -.- Oh well. One more bio paper to be returned. Seems like our class did really poorly for bio:/ I probably failed that paper really badly as well, since the highest overall mark for our class is 55.5 from what I heard. I am just resigned to fate for now. Come what may! Because they are just reflections of how much work I put in. Che...

the night b4 i was so excited to go to mt pleasant that I couldn't sleep-.- so i stupidly used the comp to play some monster world.. Landed myself in some moody lonely crevice cuz of the lack of sleep. The results that came back today didn't help at all. How did I let my physics drop again? Didn't I learn my lesson from last year's promos? I really hope paper 2 pulls me up. Gosh the A lvl stress is building up. I feel utterly helpless for GP. Gonna work hard for it cuz I know I can write. Structure's killing me. Why am I such a disorganised person? Funny that the PSC report thingy stated that I'm rather organised. Weird PSC report. Somehow it sounded so fake to me. Am I a fake person? It's like I'm starting to disbelieve in the good nature in humans. It's mostly the part about tolerating others I guess. Cuz I do take the effort to tolerate others. I just believe in avoiding trouble. I believe it's possible to grow close even without arguments...

i probably wrote on this before.. Time seems to heal everything in my life that goes wrong. And even if it was wrong after it healed everything seems so right... like if it never "went wrong" i'd be worse off. I guess there are just some ppl that, once u get to know them better they aren't really that great. Why must you call everyone an ass? No wonder you're worried that you have only a few friends. To be honest I was hesitant for a while cuz of all the rumours but when I saw that other person believe you, I guess it was safe to do so too. And when now I've gotten to know you better, you've shown me who you really are. But was I a bit too mean? I guess time will help me move on. It was stupid.

Hard work ain't just doing as many practices as one can. It is about analysing what went wrong and finding means to strengthen our weak points. It may be hard to keep doing and doing and doing and doing but it's harder to analyse and find means because it usually isn't that simple a thing to find that weak spot and to go a step further to strengthen that weak spot. And anyway once the most effective method is chosen, one has to practice the method; or if the skill is mastered, one has to learn more, analyse more and do more in order to continue developing effectively. Doing practices alone is just too simple. Don't differentiate "study hard" and "study smart", and don't put them together (study hard AND study smart). Studying smart IS studying hard.

Sry I didn't say anything when u were sad today..I just don't know how to express myself..sigh..every time when I cry u'd always hug me. I guess I'm just not that kind of desirable friend. From last time till now I always feel that I can't socialise that well and I'm like some cold fish so I was really glad u're so "touchy" and warm. Makes things so much easier. I try but sometimes it's just so hard, harder than doing any exam. It's so hard for me to even understand): Writing is probably the best way for me to express myself. Anw <3 u.